A Poem For Cyndi....

I said that I loved you. You believed me.

I said that I needed you. You believed me.

I said that I wanted to spend my life with you. You believed me.

I said I would wait for you. You believed me.

You said that you loved me. I believed you.

You said that you needed me. I believed you.

You said that you wanted to spend your life with me. I believed you.

You said you would wait for me. I believed you.

Where did it all go wrong?

Why Can't you believe me anymore?

Where did the trust go?

I still believe in you.

Please still believe in me.

I still love you.

I still Need you.

I still want to spend my life with you.

I still will wait for you.

Do you still believe me?

I do still believe you.

I do still believe in US.



I Love You Cyndi.

Yours always,

Tony

Long time ago...

How do you say thank you to someone who for the last 20+ years has always found a way to show up in my life just when things look the darkest. CW was my first true love. The kind that you spend the rest of your life thinking of what might have been. I have had 5 of those relationships but she was the first. I met CW at a movie. She was with another guy so I asked him if they were dating. He said no so I asked her out on a date. She was and still is so beautiful and always said just the right things when I needed her the most. We spent about 2 years together and I loved every minute of it. We made love everywhere you could think of and some places that you might not. At this time I was unwilling to let go of a part of my life that kept us apart on most Fridays and Saturdays. Looking back I think of how stupid I was during those time. She got tired of waiting for me and one day she left.

Many years later she found me on AOL and we started a new online friendship. For a few years we would email each other from time to time, then one day she told me that she was moving to OK. The next day her email was shut off and she was gone again.

CW was the first friend I looked for and found on Facebook. She is now married and living over seas. We chat from time to time and I have told her how much I have missed her. I hope that in the future she does not leave me high and dry again.

CW, GR, JM, MN, and now K, I want to thank each of you for the love, the magic, and the true feeling of togetherness that I have felt with each one of you. You have all touched my life in different ways and all but GR left me for better things. GR, I still miss you so much. When that drunk driver took you from me, I thought that I would never find that kind of love again. K took the last picture I had of you and had it mounted and framed to hang in our home. Thats how much love K had for me.

CW, Thanks for the Love and Friendship. You were the one that held me together in the first days of this divorce. There were times that I wanted to end it all, but you were there to let me know that I was still needed. For that I owe you my life. Thanks for all you do...

K, you are my Heart, my Soul, my Life, and my Love.
But most of all you are my Friend.

I Love You...

T.

Gone...

She's gone. But she still lives in my heart.
Locked away forever. She will never gain release.
Her body,her soul. leaving without warning.
But her memory. forever in my heart.

She's gone. But she still lives in my soul.
A soul torn apart, not by her.
But by another. He mocks me at every turn.
Knowing to well he is breaking up a family.

She's gone. But she still lives in my life.
A home divided but still as one.
It is not the house of love that we once shared.
But it is still our home. A home to 3.

She's gone. But she still lives in my Love.
A love that knows no bounds. No Time frame.
A love that looks at us through 6 year old blue eyes.
A love that I hope to see in her again.

K. When I look into his eyes I see a love that just a few years ago was so strong that it could endure any problems. I see a love that is worth fighting for.

K. When I look into his eyes, I see YOU.

You are my heart, my Soul, my Life, and my Love.
But most of all you are my friend...

I Love you for all times,

T.