The Snow...

It's snowing here in Duluth. It's rare when we see snow in the Atlanta area and when we do people go nuts. It's the big wet heavy flakes. A light coating on the grass turns the darkness of night into a light glow.

I use to love it when it snowed. Everything looks and smells so new. It would make me want to play. Having fun in the snow...

Not any more. I walked outside tonight and realized that I have no one to play in the snow with. No one to take a walk with. Arms around each other. Hand in hand. Sneaking a kiss in the falling snow. I don't have that anymore. No one to share the snow...

Cyndi will get up tomorrow, go out and play with the kids. I will dream about being with them and having my son with us. All of us together playing in the snow...

One day I hope to be a family again. Waking up together. Watching a beautiful sunrise. Going outside to play. All of this together. A family playing in the snow...

One day I will have fun in the snow again. Me and our family together in the snow...

I Love You Cyndi,

You are my Heart, my Soul, my Life, and my Love. You Are My ONE...


Tony

The Call pt.2

She called last night. I knew it was coming. She had called me yesterday morning to tell me it was coming. Didn't matter that I knew what was going to happen. Didn't matter that I knew it was all for the show. As she said those words I heard her voice break. She was fighting back tears. I could tell in her voice, I could feel it in my heart. I told her what I was going to say and she broke even more. That broke my heart. I love her so much.

So this morning rolled around and she contacted me as usual. We talked all day and nothing had changed. But everything had changed. Her heart was broke and she was worried if I was going to stay. I'm here forever Cyndi. That was the promise we made to each other. We will always be as one even if there is another trying to keep us apart.

At the end of the day he had pissed her off as usual and I had made her laugh and smile as usual. Now she goes home to him and I can't talk to my love until tomorrow. I will talk to you tomorrow Cyndi.

You are my Heart, my Soul, my Life, and my Love... You Are My ONE.

I love you my Little Bunny.

Tony....

Fairy Tale: The Do Over....

He was 23 and had never believed in love at first site. She was 16 beautiful and the friend of a friend. When he first saw her his heart filled with joy. Before she said her first to him he was deeply and madly in love with her.

They spent two years together having good days and bad days. More good than bad. They went through a really tough medical problem and their love saw them through it. Then things changed...

He had made some friends that were taking time away from her. He started spending more time with them and less with her. So at some point she was told that he was dating one of these new friends. She was 17 so there was no convincing her that nothing had happened so she finally told him goodbye. It broke his heart to hear that word, but it was even worst on her. He was her everything. She was his everything but he did not see it yet.

A few months later he called her to ask her to meet him. He was going to beg her to come back and was so happy when she said she would meet with him. She never showed to that meeting and their lives would forever be changed.

A car accident keep her from him and before they had a chance to see each other again she met the man that would take her hand in marriage. When he found out about the wedding he was devastated but he still loved her because she still had his heart.

A few years later she called him. She was having some issues and had filed for a divorce. His heart filled with joy knowing that she had come back to him in her time of need. They dated a few times but then she vanished but he still loved her because she still had his heart.

A few years after that, she called him. His heart filled with joy knowing that she had thought of him. He had gotten married and was living what she thought was a happy life. She didn't know that he was filling the void left by her in his heart. Then after a few weeks she vanished but he still loved her because she still had his heart.

Many years past this time without any words from her. He divorced his wife and moved back to his hometown. His heart still longed for her return but she was married and he was not going to get in the way. He still loved her because she still had his heart.

Then she was there again. This time a simple email that said "Hi. How are you?" That was all it took. His heart filled with joy knowing that she was back in his life. She finally told him why she had vanished all of those times. Out of respect for him. It's been two months now and she is still here with him. She is still married but they are having some issues. He still loves her because she has his heart.

I talked to him the other day and we talked about the last 25 years that he has longed for her return and he said he never gave up hope because he loved her and she had his heart. Then I asked him if she loved him any he said said yes. I asked how he knew and he said....

"Because she told me that she loved me because I always had her heart.....

The Call....

I'm sitting here for the first time hopeing not to get a call from Cyndi tonight. Let me explain....

Cyndi is going to try to tell her husband that she is in love with me and I with her. But her husband wants her to call me and tell me goodbye. She has asked me not to answer when she calls. Well if she calls that means that he has forced her into making it. That means that he has talked her into staying. If there is no call that means that she stood her ground.

Cyndi, I know you are strong and want us to be together. I love you and no matter what happens I will never leave your side.

You are my heart, my soul, my life, and my love.... You are my ONE.

/:^)<---(^;=

Tony

Yes or No....

Will she or won't she. Cyndi found out that her husband has not only been spying on her but has been reporting the findings to Cyndi's ex-friend. Was Cyndi pissed? Oh Yea!!! After a few choice words with her ex-friend she hung up and called her husband. "I Can't Do This Anymore"
And after a few choice words with him she hung up.

He called her begging and talking about hurting himself. She is now worried about him. I remember when Kiki said she was leaving. I begged, threatened to hurt myself, tried to make deals, and got mad too. All people go through these steps.

She said she has a lot to tell him about why she came to this decision. She said she is going to tell him almost everything including how we feel about each other.

I hope she can go through with this. I think he is not a good match for her anymore. She is missing something that he can't give her. I can. She has said so. I hope that she can go through with this so she can free herself from oppression.

I think she can....

Be Strong my little bunny...

You are my heart, my soul, my life, and my love. You are my ONE...

I love you Cyndi and I will never leave you. Ever......

Tony

Saying Hi To All My New Readers....

Last night we picked up a few new readers. The most interesting of those would be the one who logged in at 3:49am. I always enjoy new readers and I have nothing to hide as you can read from my post.

So what do I do about my latest readers. Nothing. I can't help how I feel.

Cyndi, I do believe everything you have said.

I Love You my little Angel...

Tony

A Test of Love...

Tonight my relationship with Cyndi took a big turn. I was going to see her for a few minutes and she really wanted to see me. We love each other so much that it hurts when we are not seeing each other or talking on the phone. We need each other...

The Big Turn....

As I was driving to see Cyndi tonight, she called me on her phone. Her husband was at work pulling his 24 hour shift so we were safe to see each other for a few minutes. well that's what we thought. When I was about 3 miles from that house she said her friends that live next door to them had come home early from a trip. Well we decided that I would just stop at the end of her driveway and she would run out to see me real quick.

As I was turning onto her street she said her husband was calling so something must be wrong. What was wrong was that someone at her house had picked up the phone and was eavesdropping on our call. They then hung up and call her husband to tell him everything we had said. Needless to say, Shit has hit the fan. She texted me to say not to contact her in anyway until I hear from her.

Cyndi and I have said that nothing would ever tear us apart. We are meant to be together and she said she will always be there. We will always be...

He is going to put a lot of pressure on her. I don't think he will leave her but he is going to lay down he law about contacting me. That has happened before and she continued to see me and that's why I know that she will be back soon.

Cyndi. You are my Heart, my Soul, my Life, and my Love. You are my ONE....

I Love You... Forever and Always....

Tony