Four years ago I felt like the luckiest man on earth. I had a family that was not perfect but was perfect enough. I wife that was my life, my heart, and my soul. A son that had just turned 2 and was my BFF. A job that I had lucked into but could have worked there forever. A family who loved me and even in-laws that treated me like a son. But But in the spring on 2005 everything started to change.
In May of 2005 my sister ,for this blog I will call her V, was told she had Cancer. Type 2, Treatable. She died on July 4 2007. My mom slipped into a deep depression. Alcohol and sleeping pills seemed to do the trick for her. She hardly knows who I am anymore. Her short term memory is now shot and her long term memory was really never there. My mom and dad just celebrated their 55 anniversary.
That brings us up-to-date. Now, About 3 months ago my wife's best friend, who is married, met someone and at my wife's request she told her husband about this other guy. Her husband did what I guess is the normal thing to do in these times and told her "ok, lets have an open relationship". Well about 2 weeks ago my wife comes to me and says she is not getting what she needs from our marriage, 8 1/2 years, and wish we could have an open marriage like her friend. Well I just was not brought up that way. Last week while reading her blog, yes she knows I read her blog, I found out that there is someone that she met on her blog that she is now wanting to meet. She says his words feels some of the things that she is missing with me. In one of the post to her blog he told her that he is in love with her.
We had a big fight on Monday night and she left on Tuesday to go to Mass. to visit with friends. She is from that area. She left without us working anything out so now I must go until next Tuesday before I know if I will still have a home. We tried to go away from the house to talk but our 6 year old son who was in bed already over heard some of our fight. So now he is scared that "his daddy might have to go and live somewhere else.
I hope that my wife (I will call her K from now on) will make the choice that will bring her back to her family. She is a singer/songwriter and her music and her voice that until a few weeks ago filled my heart and soul now makes me cry.
Even though I doubt anyone will read this blog, I will keep this blog updated. Please pray for us.
K, if you ever find this post remember that you are my love , my life, my heart, and my soul. I will love you for all time and remember that "death cannot stop true love, all it can do is delay it for a while".
Happy Thanksgiving
6 days ago
2 comments:
ok so l am intrigued after the post of the day and l'm starting at the very beginning like mary poppins once sung!
sounds like this may be a rollercoaster ride...kinda fun but scary too...but then life is like that..and I surely trip from low to high on my posts...
glad ot be here.
Thanks for stopping by. If you are starting to read this blog from day one, You are in for a ride. I go to the darkest parts of my mind.
Please keep me updated on what you think...
Tony
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