Welcome to my nightmare...

Went to bed at 1am and was up at 5. This has become a pattern over the last 2 months. Can't eat, can't sleep, so whats a poor soul to do?

Last night I spent some time talking to a friend of mine who's wife filed for divorce in March. He has done everything he could to fix his marriage and did this with her fighting him every step of the way. Last night they had their 5th session with the marriage consular. She didn't show up. So last night when he got home he told her that he was granting her the divorce. So in 30 days from today they will part ways. There were no kids so when this is final they don't even have to speak to each other ever again. 30 days. That's all it takes in Georgia. In 30 days a marriage of 26 years will end and 2 of my friends will part ways forever. How sad is that? He was the CTO of the same company that I was laid-off from in March. He also lost his job yesterday. Sorry, I forgot to add that I had lost my job in my first post.

So all off this got me thinking. 26 years and it's over in just 30 days. What chance do I have of saving my marriage. When K comes home next week from her trip, 8 1/2 years could be over in just 30 days. That would be her choice. She is away at a gathering/retreat somewhere in Mass.. She did not leave an emergency contact number or any other info about how to contact her this week. If something happens to RA, her mom, or myself this week, I have no way to get her a message. She did call yesterday to see if everything was OK, but I was fishing and she only called the house. I did talk to her but only after I called her. She said when she got to where she was going there would be no cell service.

Well time to wrap things up.

D: I'm am there for you brother. If you need anything you just pick-up the phone and call.

MommyLady: Always remember this, you have always been there for me and K. You have helped us through so much. Both good and bad. And for that I will always love you like my real mom. No matter what happens between your daughter and I, you will always be a very important person in my life.

K: No man has ever loved a woman as much as I love you. We have been through some tough times before and most of the time it's my fault. I know that some times I'm a pain in the ass. And some times I am just an ass.

Because I don't have contact info for you this week I will leave you this in hopes that one day you will find it. If something should happen to me while you are gone, always remember that my spirit will always be right there beside you. Whispering "I Love You" so softly that only your heart can hear it. You are My Heart, My Soul, My Life, and My Love.